I'm sorry!!! I promise this is the last move.. I doubt anyone still comes here, but if you do, the new address iz Reelyfexperiencez.net [Yeah, got my own site! lolz.]

Anyway, I'm sure you'll enjoy this site much better than this one... See ya there!

[rcz] <-Yeah, thatz the new thing! lolz. Lataz..

*insert really interesting entry here*

lolz!

Sorry... *smile*

I'll write a little more later... I thynk... Well, I'll try... lolz!

I don't thynk they're laughing...

Sorry!

*pause*


Uhm... Lataz...

P.S. - In regardz to the entry title.. My friend Star said that, not me... lolz!

Sure...

Lata Nigga...

*frown*

Bye...

*deep breath*

Ok, here goes... *smile*

Itz been a while, huh? Yes, bitch... Damn, u already?! I don't know if I can handle coming out of retirement and dealin' with you this early... lolz! Fine... I'll calm down... Thank You... I know I haven't written in here in a while, and as much as I hate playing "catch up", I will humor you however, with a short Q&A session... Hopefully, it'll answer any questionz, curiousity, etc. that you may have about what'z been going on since my last entry...

Do you mind if I ask the questionz? Sure... Why not..? (Unenthused, to say the least...) Okay great! Let's get started, shall we?

Q: Where the fuck have you been?!?
A: This is gonna be a short interview if you don't calm the fukk down...

Sorry. Let's start over... I'm new at this "being nice" shyt... Ok, let's begin again...

Q: Where have you been?
A: Well, I haven't really been anywhere... I just got lazy, and after so many dayz without updating, it got to the point where I actually forgot about what I'd done, so I really had nothing to write about.

Q: Do you remember anything about the visit from Mz. Stokez?
A: Yes, and no. I can't recall anything specific, I know it had itz ups and downz... But overall, the visit was fine...

Q: Just fine, huh?
A: Yup. Just fine... Next question!

Q: No need for the attitude... A good reporter oftentimez has to dig deep in order to get the dirt...
A: You're not a "good reporter". You're not even a real person! You're just the omniscent voice of this page! Get a grip!

Q: You're the one talking and answering yourself, but I'm the one that needz to get a grip? Interesting...
A: Good Point. Next question please...

Q: So, what'z the status of Mz. Stokez at this point in time?
A: Uhm... Hard to say... At this point in time, I'm not fukkin' wit her anymore...

Q: If I had a nickel for everytime you said that, I'd have... Hold on, I need to get my calculator... *pause* at LEAST 10 cents!
A: lolz! I know I've said that before, and then I end up cuddled up next to her a few nightz later.. But honestly, I thynk this tyme iz different... I'm not gonna get into detail, because she readz this, and she already knowz what she did, and thatz really all that matterz... You live, and you learn...and maybe this was something we both lived and learned from.. Now, itz tyme for us to move on.. *smile*

Q: Sounds like you guys will be back together in a few days...
A: Hardly. We were never "together" to begin with, and I thynk I've run out of patience/hope/optimism for Madame Stokez... *smile*

Q: Ok, moving on... So who's next on the love path?
A: I really don't know... I've never been good at "playing the field", if you may... So, I don't have a 2nd string female waiting in the wings or anything... I have a couple of friends that I may take more seriously now, but other than that, I'm chillin' for the moment... *wink*

Q: Sure you are... Does your next song have anything to do with your current situation?
A: Good Question. ((Duh! You asked it, smart guy!)) lolz! Oh yeah, I forgot... Anyway, yeah it does... I'm not gonna say exactly what parts of the song relate to who and to what, but I'm sure when you hear it, if you listen closely to the words, you'll figure it out... Especially if the song is about you.. *hint, hint*

Q: OoOoooOooooh! So itz about someone you know?
A: Possibly... That's all I'm gonna say... I have to leave something for the imagination...

Q: Okay. Well, as I'm sure you know, Hurricane Katrina has impacted a number of American lives. How has it affected you?
A: Well, other than the rising gas prices and the impact it has had on my pocket, I've also experienced a temporary loss of touch with my friend Catherine. Catherine, or Sam, is a friend of mine who lived in New Orleans. I called her two nights before the storm hit, but there was no response, so I left a message... The day after the storm, I called and there was again no answer, but this tyme, the answering machine did not pick up. I'm assuming her home, in addition to thousands others, might have been washed away by the storm, hopefully well after evacuation. I have yet to hear anything from her, but I've been calling everyday since the storm hit, and I will continue to do my best to find my friend. Hopefully, she evacuated early in the week, before the storm hit, and is safely at home with neighboring family and friends in Baton Rouge, La. or somewhere else. Hopefully...

Q: Have you checked redcross.org?
A: Yeah I checked the site earlier today, but I don't remember her last name, and there are almost one hundred Catherine's on the list of people rescued and taken in by the Red Cross. I'm in the process of getting my home phone records sent to me, so I can get her full name from there. Again, hopefully she is at someone'z home, safe and sound, eating red beans n' rice and a shrimp po'boy... lolz! *smile*

Q: On a happier note, Happy Belated Birthday!
A: Thankyou, Thankyou... The Big 2-5! Whoop Whoop! lolz!

Q: Do you feel old now?
A: I thought I would, but I don't... I still look 12, so I guess that'z why... I went to this club a couple weekz ago, and thiz chyk tried to "carry me" (thatz my DC slang... Thanks Carolyn!), askin' me to show her my ID. I was 24 at the time, so i'm talkin to her, and come to find out, she'z a mere 21, tryna play me for a young buck... At the end of the conversation, shorti was lyke, "so when am I gonna see you again?" I told her, "I don't know... I'd give you my number, but ur a little too young for me..." lolz... I would lie to you and say I walked away lyke "Yeah bitch!", but I didn't... lolz! She gave me herz instead, but like I said before, I'm not good at handlin' more than one female at a time, so I haven't called her yet... But, since Mz. Stokez iz falling quickly from the rankz of #1, I might just give her a call... *smile*

Q: Definitely do that. You always have to keep your options open. How's the job hunt going?
A: I interviewed with Airtran last week, and I have another interview with them this coming Thursday.

Q: You're going to be a flight attendant? rofl!
A: No, dipshyt... I applied for their professional positions.

Q: Oh, lolz! Sorry. I still thynk you'd be a better flight attendant... lolz!
A: lolz... Anything else?

Q: Uhm.. I guess that'z it... If anyone reading this has anything that'd they'd want to ask, that I may have forgotten, please feel free to post them in the tagboard, or leave a comment at the bottom of this entry. Thanks for the update, and thanks for answering all of my questionz...
A: No problem.

*exhales*

Ok, that was weird... lolz!

Well, I won't promise to write in here everyday, but I will promise to make a better effort at it...

I wanted to post a new song, but the server iz actin' up ryte now, so I'll get that up as soon as electronically possible... *smile*

God Bless Everyone effected by Hurricane Katrina, and especially my friend Catherine and her family... Until next tyme...

Lataz...

If you paid any attention to the entry before last, the reference to "Ms. Stokez" should ring a bell, make perfect sense, and I could put a ":" at the end of thiz sentence, like so:

...and I would begin...


BUT!


Since NO ONE readz the damn blog from the bottom up, lyke they're supposed to!

He'z gonna have to explain!!!




*sigh*




I hope this lil' skippin' of the linez thing that I'm doin' iz pissin' you the fukk off... lolz...

Anyway, I made an apology in the prefaced referred entry to the people that have tried to reach out to me, and I said: "Especially & Specifically, Ms. Stokez..." Well... She'z comin' into town tomorrow! *smile*

Pics will taken... But, I'm not promising that they will be posted... Someone told Ms. Stokez that she was somebody'z Super model, so I'm not gonna give her the benefit of thinkin' she'z cute enough to be a feature entry... lolz! But, chin up! I may change my mynd... I doubt it.. But maybe... who knowz? *smile*

Ok, I'm missin' Anchorman...

I'm out...

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(*insert New York voice here*) Don't fukk wit the one who writez blue... (*insert Down South voice here*) He don't play... lolz...

Ok, I'm dumb... lolz...

Lataz...

Watz Good?

Yeah, I'm changin' the #1 song again... Big whoop! lolz... My friend Peta-Gaye gave me three new songz that she wanted me to listen to, and I liked thiz one the best... So, without further adieu... Welcome to Reelyfexperiencez... Usher... Dot Com...

There are some thingz in lyfe that you want, just because you know you can't have them... 50 bedroom mansionz... (only Evander has that, if not more... But, he also has 49 kidz... So itz kinda necessary...) Lambourgini doorz on ur Ford Focus... (thatz pretty much self-explanatory... and dumb!) And sometimez... Someone'z heart... especially when it belongz to someone else...

Halo might be a perfect fit for me... But, she'z not the only one... I realized that I put her up on thiz invisible pedestle, way above any other woman... and for what? Granted, we had a great time together... We laughed and smiled... Painted the town red, and all that jazz... lolz! But, we were never together, and I honestly don't really even know her that well... She is beautiful beyond comparison, but she belongz to someone else now...and I had a dream last night that helped me realize this...

Now, I am far from "Sexy Man of the Year", but I got a lil' somethin' to offer...ya know? I'm wat they call a "Hopeless Romantic" at timez, and will do almost anything within my power to make the person I'm with, feel special and loved... I may not show it all of the time, but if I really have feelingz for you, you will definitely know it... What'z ur point, dawg? I'm gettin' sleepy...

Anyway, my point is... I've been so stuck on "Halo", that I've done to other people, exactly what she has done to me... I've turned away so many potentially great friends, because of what I thought I wanted... And I realized, that if I didn't snap out of it soon, in the end, I'd wind up grumpy, bitter, and alone...

So, with that said... I apologize to all of the wonderful people out there that have tried to reach out to me, without reciprocation... Especially & Specifically, Ms. Stokez... Now, there are thingz that you may want from me, that I KNOW I can't give you, but I would like to start with a friendship, and take it from there...

Halo
I was in love with another man'z gyrl...
But I am, no more...
For her heart, now is his...
And mine... Nevermore...

The contentz of her heart, lie no room for my love...
Only room for one other, one other lucky soul...
I tip my hat to this man, for accomplishing such feat...
I admit that I lost, admit I was beat...

But in the end, loss is hers...
So my bitterness is few...
I have so much more to offer...
more than monetary do's...

I was in love with another man'z gyrl...
But I am, no more...
For her heart, now is his...
And mine... Nevermore...

Lataz...

Watz Good Erry'body? *smile*

I went to South Beach, Miami back in March sometime, with my friendz Laurence, Donell, and Tiffani, but I never really got around to postin' the pics from our trip... So, uhm... here they are! lolz... Sorry for the delay... I get kinda lazy at timez... lolz...

Enjoy!

Oh yeah...

P.S. - South Beach is the greatest place in the Universe! lolz... No, seriously... It really is! *smile*

Oh, before I begin... Keep in mind when viewing, that the person taking the snapshotz (Donell), iz a professional "natural" photographer... Rarely did we ever pose for a picture... So, if it looks as if we're looking off in the distance at an invisible object, we're not... We are probably really looking at something, but being the artiste' that he is when taking photographs, it looks as if we're posing... So, in actuality... We're posing... But, we're not... I mean, we are... But, not intentionally... So, itz lyke... we're.. OK, OKAY!!! We get it!!! Show the damn pics!!! lolz... Sorry... I just wanted to be clear...

Anyway, let the show begin... *rollz digital cam footage*

Let'z begin by introducing our "modelz"...


Laurence... I thynk he may have posed for this one... If you look closely, he's tryin' not to laugh...


Me... I didn't pose for this... I'm just tryna' figga' out what I'm wearin' to the club that night... lolz...


Donell a.k.a. Cameraman Extraordinaire'... You won't see him in many of these pics, due to the fact that a true artiste' is found on the opposite end of the camera lens... lolz...


Me again... Didn't pose for this one either... I had no money to shop, so I was just chillin' by the fountain while the ballerz shopped... Perfect photo opp. for Mr. Bankz... *snap* *snap* (even though digi-camz don't make that sound, you get my point!)


Tiffani... She'z a sweetheart... I thynk she made a comment or two in here a few timez... Warning! - This is what she looks lyke BEFORE alcohol enterz her system... (keep that in mynd for future snapshotz... lolz!)


Guess who?!? lolz... I actually posed for this one... I copped the jacket downtown that day, and I wanted to see how it fit... Kinda snug... But I lyke it... *smile*

Ok, thatz enough solo shotz... On to the group shotz... Candid, of course!


2 Men and a Lady... I forgot the name of the place we went that day... I wanna say Coconut Grove, but that would be wrong... So uhm, just pretend it was Coconut Grove... *smile*


One 4 The Fellaz... I kinda look a little peturbed about posin' for this pic... Dunno why though...maybe because we just took the same pic 5 seconds earlier... Or, maybe my period was about to start... Who knowz... lolz...


We look lyke we got an album comin' out in a few weekz... lolz...


One of the hardest candid shotz D'z prolly ever taken... *thumbz up*


My Nigga Shaq... I decided to surprise everyone and have Shaq meet us downtown at one of the local Barbershopz... They were so surprised! lolz... Loserz...

red - shaq // white - me

"C'mon... Just hit it for me one time... Do it for me..." - Shaq
"Aiight Shaq... I'll do it for you... Just one time..." - Me
"Two timez... Two timez for me..." - Shaq
*sigh* "Ok, Shaq... Two timez..." - Me

Peer Pressure iz a bitch! lolz..


Tiffani and myself after leaving "Wet Willy's"... (She'z so funny wit' a little drink in her system... lolz!)

We took quite a few beach shotz, but I only had one of note that I wanted to show...


The lovely Robin and myself... She owes the government over $5000 in tax expenses, thatz why her face is covered... She's beautiful tho... Trust! (Oh yeah, she also has like 57 tattooz... Mmmm.... Sexy!)

And the best part about South Beach... The Clubz...


Crystal, Nicole, and Tiffany (l. to r.) - Tiff thynkz she'z hard... throwin' up da' eastside... lolz... You're from Stone Mountain gyrl... Not Decatur! lolz... (We shared a room with Crystal & Nicole... kool peepz...)


"Get em L!!!" - Keep in mynd, we drank alot! She looked lyke Mary J. Blige in the dark! I promise! lolz...


"I'm so faded!" (Inside Joke)


Pre-club Gathering...


Uh oh... I thynk I may have found me a cutie... And she'z tiny lyke me!!! *smile*


"Get em' Ryan... Get em! Get em' Ryan... Get em!"


Ok, remember what I said about us drinkin' alot, right? Ok, Good... Just keep that in mynd... Right Tiff? ...Tiff?? You there?!?


"Huh..?" ZzZzzZzz.... lolz! (Dude next to Tiffani lookz lyke a Lebron Jamez high-school dropout... lolz!)


Post-club "We need to find a damn cab so we can get home" Gathering... Not so fun when ur pissy drunk!


Post-club Gathering with my bed... lolz...

That'z all folks!

Lataz!

Yeah, so I know Bobby V. hasn't even been featured for a week yet, but a friend of myne (Mz. Peta-Gaye) asked me to download Ray-J'z song "One Wish", after reading my last blog entry, and I kinda lyke it... Therefore, here it is... *smile* Ol' gyrl iz still my "Love Dream", but if I had "One Wish", we would be best friends... love would never end... it would just begin... She would be my...We get the point nigga! Can we just listen to the song..? lolz. Thankz.. My bad homie... *smile*

Well anyway, welcome to the blog... Ray-J... & One Wish...

Peace...

I don't know how much this song has to do with my situation, but I really like Bobby V'z new CD, and this song, in addition to Marques' "Naked", is also in heavy rotation on the slo-jam playlist... (Plus, I really didn't feel like searching around for a song about a gyrl who breaks up with her boyfriend to be with another man... lolz!) I'm kidding... I'm kidding... Itz a stretch, but I guess you can say Ms. Halo is in a way, my "Love Dream"... *smile*

Itz a stretch, I know! Gimme a break! *smile*

Anyway, without further adieu... Ladiez & Gentlemen... Bobby Valentino's "Love Dream"...

Lataz...

I just talked to a friend of myne...and although I was doing the majority of the talking (typing), she helped me realize something... If my mystery lady wants me...she will come to me... How's the saying go... If you want something, let it go... If it comes back to you, then it was yours from the start... If it doesn't... It was never yours to begin with...

I'm pretty sure that'z not how the saying goes... I just pulled that outta' my ass... But, you get my point!

I still have to make an entry explaining the history between my mystery woman, we'll call her "Halo", and myself, but since that won't be happening tonight, let me say this briefly...

When she wanted me, I was with Lauren... And at the time, I couldn't see past that... I couldn't fathom anyone else being right for me... And I was wrong... She was right for me... She was right for me then...and although she wouldn't piss on me if I were on fire, I still believe she is right for me now...

However, when she saw how serious I was, or thought I was, about Lauren, she backed off... She backed off completely... She gave me my space, let my relationship unfold, and in due tyme... it was over... And despite countless attempts on both of our parts to make it work, in the end, we realized that we really weren't meant to be... And although I REALLY don't want to, just as Halo gave me space to make my own mistakes and judgements, I must do the same for her... I need to give her the time and space to see who is right for her... She is head over heelz in love with her boyfriend ryte now, and all I can do now is get in the way, piss her off, and spoil any chance I ever have in the future, at winning her heart... So, with that said... I'm gonna back off a bit, and see what happenz... *smile*

I know it soundz cheezy, but itz true... I thynk about her E-V-E-R-Y day... I haven't seen her in over a year, and yet her cute little gap-toothed smile iz lyke a carbon copy replica in my mynd... I had more fun with her in a week and a half than I ever had in year and some change with Lauren... Yeah, Lauren and I had some good timez... But, because of our age disparity, we were never really able to do all the things that I may wanted to do... We were never really able to connect in every way possible... We did the best with what we had, but it was never what it could have, and should have been... And not to sound redundant, but I thynk about Halo AT LEAST once E-V-E-R-Y day... And honestly, I prolly will continue to do so, until either Cupid shootz her in the ass and convinces her to give me another chance, or until someone else comes along to take her place in my mynd... *cue awwz & love music* lolz...

Ok, that'z enough borderline stalker talk for one evening... Itz 1:29 a.m...

...only time will tell...

Peace...